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So I totally planned on having a different spin on this post when I brainstormed which topic I wanted to go with for this week. I had this beautiful, clear, uplifting, and easy write all sketched out in my head. Then I got to the weekend, and I was not in the right headspace to write about it because of my lovely anxiety. I have been doing pretty good, in all honesty, dealing with my anxiety, and then I will wake up one morning, and boom…I lost it. I still have yet to figure out what exactly triggers my anxiety. Well, let me rephrase that. I actually know the triggers it could be, but not the exact one that about does it for me. The topic I chose for this post is metamorphosis and the stages of life and the beauty in the good and bad. I wanted to change the topic altogether or just leave it until I felt good again, but what better way to talk about the beauty in life even with trials and tribulations than when I am currently going through it.

Soo here it goes…

We are all a product of love in some way, shape, or form. We are born only knowing love, without even fully grasping or understanding what it is or what it means. We open our eyes for the first time to a new life, a new beginning. We go through those early stages in life with all kinds of dreams and imagination. We live in different fantasies and believe in all the magic and wonders of the world. We grow up, and that magic begins to fade. Once upon a time, we were curious about everything and anything. We were once so naive, so pure and full of joy, and then we begin to suffer the hardships of life. Loss of a loved one, failed friendships/relationships, sickness, etc. Each time we feel our hearts ache, we bottle ourselves up more and more. We blame love instead of embracing it and letting it enter our lives in the bad just as much as in the good.

My biggest fear is losing a loved one, as I am sure it is the same for many. I am also sure that it is for the same reasons people fear love in general and falling in love. The fear of loving someone so much, knowing that the deeper that love grows, the worse the pain will be if there is even the slightest possibility that they won’t be in your life anymore. That is a pain that not many can bear. A pain that is completely understandable if it absolutely breaks you to your core. A pain that instills more fear of ever loving again. A pain that changes you forever. It puts you in a dark room with no doors, no light, and no hope. You feel small and begin to think that your life is over. Then you wake up again, open your eyes, and in due time, start to see life through different lenses. Not only for the beauty you were discovering for the first time, but the beauty you now understand was there all along. You realize the blessing it is to love, and to love so deeply and wholeheartedly. You grow from that pain and transform into something beautiful… You are scarred and forever changed with the knowledge and memory of that pain. This is true, but you are not just back from that, you are become better from that. You are blessed with the greatest gift of all, which is life and the love you have in it. Love that you receive and give, and that you have for yourself. The beauty we see in life is the beauty we see in ourselves.

Stay tuned for some visuals I created to go with this post using the caterpillar to butterfly metamorphosis stages to demonstrate and compare to all walks of life. As always God bless you all!